I know i didn't do it very well...
But how else could i have said it?
That i wanted to walk through the threshold to a new year alone, and not with you?
I would just bring over, to the new year, what should be important.
My self (and yes, perhaps my cat).

After that, i started the new year with what i really wanted: to sleep peacefully without dreams.
Not that the crossing over had been easy, a phonecall, chit-chatting with friend made it easier.
Making the passing of year to year hardly noticible.
For that i thank you.